3.1 KiB
3.1 KiB
- She is still feeling hurt by the multiple comments I made about if she was feeling abused I wouldn’t care if she left or that she should go
- It left her feeling heartbroken
- What kept replaying in her mind is that I don’t care and that she isn’t important to me
- She is not worth fighting for
- Sorry for what I said hurt her
- It won’t be brought up like that in the future
- She had to sit with it for 24 hrs thinking I don’t give a shit if she left
- She is so worthless that I couldn’t be bothered to adjust my behaviour
- To be omg I’m so sorry I’m making you feel that way what can I do how can I change to make it better for you
- Not turning it back on her and saying how she is emotionally abusive
- She is still feeling sad from the last week and being lashed out on last weekend
- Feeling worried and unsupported in regards to her mom yesterday
- she feels upset that I would hold it against her if she gives understanding to Alice that I don’t get
- Things will not always be the same or equal but she would want to hope that I can feel glad for Alice that she is being understood
- She feels hopeless by the way I respond when frustrated
- Feels like everything is bad and it’s hard to keep proving to me that she is trying and she loves me
- The biggest one is she is feeling worried for me and the big emotional fluctuations
- She feels dread waiting for the next upset and how bad it will feel
- She feels stressed by how disruptive that will be to our family life
- it’s just coming from a place of love and concern but she thinks something is going on with me that needs to be addressed
- Possibly that I am depressed
- Could be seasonally related
- She understand that there are things that I am going to be upset by but the extreme highs and lows don’t seem healthy, maybe not taking vyvanse right times or right dose?
- She knows I say when I’m low it’s all her fault and she has seen me have this response with other things going on
- Makes her think I am not as emotionally regulated as I should be to show up for our family like they would want
- To give me more peace? I can get so low so quick it must be exhausting
- Can get in a funk and it seems like that can be hard for me from her perspective
- She feels scared that the place I was in last spring could be a reality again
- It really hurt when she asked if I had seen the text message and she knows I didn’t know the context of the message was but I went into things that completely derailed what she was asking about if I had seen the message
- It was really hard and it brought back a lot of hurt from how lonely she felt and alone she felt when her grandpa died
- She hasn’t told the kids anything as they don’t have all the info yet
- We don’t know it’s all ok and we don’t know the results of the exploration were
- Just means the procedure they did went well going in but results could be bad
Action items
- Ask for breaks sooner
Feeling heard out by me and nothing further to mention and good to stop taking notes