1.7 KiB
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Upset that yesterday seemed to focus on her not using framework properly
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Take ownership that the comment was her opinion over feelings
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Asked for time and space for feeling to share
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No judgement or expectation
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Asked to clarify when I was talking about and tried to replay the scenarios
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Used to turn around on her
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Not that she doesn’t want to hear opinion or feelings but wasn’t right time
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She asked first so listen
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Sucks that it escalated to me raising voice and she asked to lower voice
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Upsetting when matched voice to hers
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Upsetting to her how mean I can be when I’m upset
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Acknowledge that how I talk to her isn’t ok
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Hasn’t seen a change or improvement
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But because of framework and breaks
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When framework isn’t used default is to lash out and attack her
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It’s not ok
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Trying to get across last night
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She didn’t care was meaning I didn’t have the right to treat her like crap
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I could choose to remove myself
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She isn’t going to use framework every time but not a pass to treat her like garbage
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When I lash out like I do makes it so she doesn’t want to be around me
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Not much positives to pull from
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Already on empty
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Already don’t feel important
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Don’t feel cherished or treasured like a life partner
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Nothing left to fill her back up and it sucks
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Makes it so she isn’t able to be the parent that she wants to be
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Has very real and negative consequences on mental health and self worth
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Want to know I have a plan to fix it
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Sorry isn’t good enough
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Hope I will be able to put some time and energy into it
Notes:
#Christina