1.6 KiB
1.6 KiB
- Feeling sad when I mentioned yesterday that I thought we were ok before our convo in the morning
- She wasn’t ok yesterday morning
- It was yesterday afternoon I was upset and not feeling heard and that’s when I said we were in a Good place
- She were feeling upset overwhelmed and frustrated
- Maybe that played a factor in how convo about Charlie went and her feeling overburdened with everything
- Leading up to the convo she was sad feeling exhausted and broken down and worthless
- I was sitting on the couch on my phone and maybe I didn’t notice
- We talked Sunday night but the hurt doesn’t go away when she is treated that way
- She is still working through that
- She is feeling Defeated and worthless by how she was treated Sunday at the mall
- Exhausted from hearing how negatively I see the things she does
- Defeated from trying to avoid land mines that she didn’t even know existed
- Which is me being upset about things she didn’t say or scenarios that didn’t exist to her
- Feeling extremely beyond exhausted and beat down from this emotional rollercoaster
When she feels beaten down at the mall and a panicked attack in a public space Lashing out and how I was talking to her Sticks with her Really degrades how she feels about herself It’s embarrassing it’s shitty Hates that the kids have to see that Hate that it affects an outing with the kids So when she got home was able to share how she was feeling and then I got to share
She is still healing come Monday morning
Actions
- Working on expressing myself to not ‘lash out’ at Christina and a way I can feel heard