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  • She is still feeling hurt by the multiple comments I made about if she was feeling abused I wouldnt care if she left or that she should go
  • It left her feeling heartbroken
  • What kept replaying in her mind is that I dont care and that she isnt important to me
  • She is not worth fighting for
    • Sorry for what I said hurt her
    • It wont be brought up like that in the future
    • She had to sit with it for 24 hrs thinking I dont give a shit if she left
    • She is so worthless that I couldnt be bothered to adjust my behaviour
    • To be omg Im so sorry Im making you feel that way what can I do how can I change to make it better for you
    • Not turning it back on her and saying how she is emotionally abusive
  • She is still feeling sad from the last week and being lashed out on last weekend
  • Feeling worried and unsupported in regards to her mom yesterday
  • she feels upset that I would hold it against her if she gives understanding to Alice that I dont get
  • Things will not always be the same or equal but she would want to hope that I can feel glad for Alice that she is being understood
  • She feels hopeless by the way I respond when frustrated
  • Feels like everything is bad and its hard to keep proving to me that she is trying and she loves me
  • The biggest one is she is feeling worried for me and the big emotional fluctuations
  • She feels dread waiting for the next upset and how bad it will feel
  • She feels stressed by how disruptive that will be to our family life
  • its just coming from a place of love and concern but she thinks something is going on with me that needs to be addressed
    • Possibly that I am depressed
    • Could be seasonally related
    • She understand that there are things that I am going to be upset by but the extreme highs and lows dont seem healthy, maybe not taking vyvanse right times or right dose?
    • She knows I say when Im low its all her fault and she has seen me have this response with other things going on
    • Makes her think I am not as emotionally regulated as I should be to show up for our family like they would want
    • To give me more peace? I can get so low so quick it must be exhausting
    • Can get in a funk and it seems like that can be hard for me from her perspective
  • She feels scared that the place I was in last spring could be a reality again
  • It really hurt when she asked if I had seen the text message and she knows I didnt know the context of the message was but I went into things that completely derailed what she was asking about if I had seen the message
  • It was really hard and it brought back a lot of hurt from how lonely she felt and alone she felt when her grandpa died
  • She hasnt told the kids anything as they dont have all the info yet
  • We dont know its all ok and we dont know the results of the exploration were
  • Just means the procedure they did went well going in but results could be bad

Action items

  • Ask for breaks sooner

Feeling heard out by me and nothing further to mention and good to stop taking notes