- [ ] Doesn’t think it’s all my fault
- [ ] Thinks I was interrupting when she was talking to Charlie in the living room
- [ ] She didn’t me say I was advocating for Charlie 
- [ ] Would have liked to hear what I had to say just not at that time
- [ ] Wish what she was going through had been considered more
- [ ] She was just trying to talk to me about the conversation I started
- [ ] Thinks she messed up this as well (self deprecating)
- [ ] Doesn’t want me to reiterate it
- [ ] Energy I came out with was a lot
- [ ] She was sad and upset and didn’t need to attend to that
- [ ] She needed to be cared for for a bit
- [ ] Slapped kicked bit today and last thing she wants is to go through mental gymnastics with me
- [ ] She has acknowledged she messed up and clarifying questions she asked came across poorly 
- [ ] The way I treated her upstairs in the convo was not ok
- [ ] I said I didn’t want to talk about it anymore but she doesn’t know what to do
- [ ] But then I come in her space and do this
- [ ] Requiring her to put more mental energy into me
- [ ] She needed to feel cared for and emotionally cared for today
- [ ] She pushed away because of the way I was treating her
- [ ] It’s not that I don’t deserve to to feel comforted and loved like she is asking for now
- [ ] She doesn’t remember conversations about letting me know she can’t be there for me because of how she was feeling towards me
- [ ] Didn’t seem like a safe space to let me know she wasn’t ok
- [ ] She was feeling mistreated by me
- [ ] She was letting me know she was looking for comfort and had a shit awful day
- [ ] Said this when she came down asking if I wanted to do clay before talking about
- [ ] Wants me to see she is hurting and be there for her

- The expectation I set out if she could let me know but she could not and I didn’t make her feel safe
- She was looking earlier for comfort but no longer after the way she was made to feel
- It’s ok to step back bc she doesn’t feel safe with me
- It’s ok for her to not talk to me bc she doesn’t feel safe with what I would say to her
- About halfway through something shifted and I was picking at things she was saying and she didn’t feel safe



Action item
- [ ] Dig deeper when things are not successful to be there for her when she is feeling upset
- [ ] Don’t bring this energy to her when she is sad and upset



Wtf is this shit
- [ ] Energy I came out with was a lot
- [ ] I forced myself out here