- She felt very concerned and sad by the way I have talked to the kids at times the past few days
- She has felt overwhelmed by the responsibility that falls to her when I am unable to be kind with the kids
- She feels angry when her words aren’t respected (eg the hamper upstairs yesterday) which then directly resulted in an escalation she needed to intervene on
- She strongly believes that if I had not put the hamper back in her room creating that physical power struggle we could have gone downstairs and she could have regrouped
- She is upset that she were sick and she needed to pick up a lot of slack with the kids 
- She felt frustrated by being interrupted or her needing to bring it back from deflection saying she isn’t talking about that she is talking about what I said or did. When she was trying to advocate for the kids
- It is unfair and stressful to ask her to go down and get the day started earlier bc I want to get some stuff done bc I am not feeling working later
- That puts the responsibility solely on her and she works her full day
- Esp today when she has a field trip and she already slept in then I added to her burdens 
- It feels like an uphill battle to help me when I am maki by the comments I did in the bedroom when she asked if I was going to come under the blanket and me saying she doesn’t have to do it or need to or I’m sighing bc I am feeling I am doing something by wrong
- She wasn’t in a great place and she had a lot she was working through, she is trying to show up for me and be there for me and it feels like it’s being made more difficult 
- She understands that I said I wanted to be close to someone but my actions contributed to her feeling exhausted and frustrated which leads her to pull away or focus on her own wellbeing 
- She can’t keep giving to everyone else when she has nothing left

  

- Kids need to see a calm role model of frustration when possible
- If not possible we need to model taking a break
- The kids should not be shown upsetting pictures with no warning bc I am upset
- Not sure if I noticed but Alice started crying
- She has been really struggling with the loss of ninja and loss of her grandpa and it’s a really shitty way to start her day
- There should be no hands on with Alice unless there is immenent danger to herself or others
- Touch invites touch and almost always escalates with her
- She needs time to calm down then discuss consequences or what happened dropping the rope is not letting her win it’s stopping the power struggle and readdressing when it will be more effective 
- Don’t know if it would work but Christina to try saying  to take a break 
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Actions 

- Ask for breaks more often with kids and Christina
- Model better frustration behaviour for the kids when upsetting things happen
- Contain need to tug of war with Alice when she starts up
- When Christina sick try and pick up more thing s to lighten the load

  

Christina is feeling heard out and I am stopping taking notes as of 9:20pm est