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+#Christina #Feelings - April 17 2022
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+I feel like you think it’s ok to keep treating me  like shit bc it keeps happening. If you thought it wasn’t ok you would stop doing it I assume.
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+ Christina’s feelings
+- [ ] I feel like shit
+- [ ] Don’t want record of how your feeling right now
+- [ ] Very frustrated 
+- [ ] Feeling really hurt with how today played out
+- [ ] Don’t feel like you can trust me when I’m upset about something 
+- [ ] Feel like I can’t look past what my reaction is to tune into her feelings 
+- [ ] Eg. this afternoon with me needing to go to bathroom I explained away stuff instead of listening to her
+- [ ] Not interested in how I think I acted or why I did it
+- [ ] Was trying to share she was hurt bc of way she thought she was talked to
+- [ ] Another eg. downstairs trying to follow up how she was feeling and I got hung up on how she said a thing
+- [ ] Wanted to deflect and clear it up first
+- [ ] Said she would take out assume and that is still the way she feels
+- [ ] Putting phone in face and telling her repeatedly it’s a you statement not a feelings statement.
+- [ ] She felt unimportant 
+- [ ] Apologizing and it still keeps happening
+- [ ] Assuming if I apologize it would stop or reduce
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+- [ ] Hurtful to her about way I am hitting down notes - impersonal
+- [ ] Asked if I can do something different as it’s been this way for a while
+- [ ] Feel like she is a piece of trash that I can kick around
+- [ ] Not worth my time to fix it
+- [ ] Tried to bring up her feelings and first thought was to explain it away
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+- [ ] It’s frustrating that after a really good weekend and her being attentive to her needs
+- [ ] She tries to tell me something she needs she got the response she did
+- [ ] Even in a good place not able to tune in and listen to her feelings or respond
+- [ ] Probably went differently if asked to use the framework
+- [ ] If she is upset don’t ask her what’s wrong if I’m not ready to talk about feelings
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+- [ ] Could have let you know I need a minute before hearing her feelings
+- [ ] How am I going to work at this so it doesn’t keep happening?
+- [ ] Hurts when I respond with anger or agitation
+- [ ] Can’t trust she can be vulnerable with her and I emotionally take care of her
+- [ ] Can get really mean and assertive and it sucks
+- [ ] Do I think the way I am acting today when looking up the I feel statements was acceptable?
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+- [ ] Sign for me:
+- [ ] Ready to talk
+- [ ] Not ready to talk
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+- [ ] Think there needs to be a convo about listening